ニーナ・メルセデスのインスタグラム(lifewithmariza) - 10月14日 02時51分

Does anyone remember that song by @reba called Fancy?
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Every time I hear that song so much runs through my head. When I was 15 I had my first baby, by 16 I was married and in a very abusive relationship by 17 I was a single mom with an 8th grade education. I was living with my parents who didn’t have much and were heroin addicts. I wanted nothing more than to get out. I waitressed her and there but working for tips would never get me out.
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One day my mom showed me an ad in the paper for a “modeling job” she asked if I wanted to go interview. I had done 1 modeling job for wal-mart prior and she knew I liked it.
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She drove me down to the address not far from our house. It was during the day and walking in I saw girls half naked on stage and a lot of people. The lights were low and it smelled like liquor. I was terrified because I thought umm this is not “modeling”. We went into an office and sat with the manager he explained what the job was and how you got paid. He also explained I needed to be 18 and my mom pulled out a photo ID that said I was 18 and handed it to him. She filled out some paperwork as I sat there quietly listening. When we walked out my mom said that I needed to do this. She didn’t look at me she looked forward and I felt the coldness in her emotion. I trusted my mom though she’s all I had.
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We sat in the car and she said you can’t tell your dad. I’ll watch the baby if you work at night but this will get you the money you need to start your life. That night, she did my hair and make-up and gave me lingerie and shoes to wear in a bag. My mom dropped me off that night and that’s how I eventually got myself out of her house.
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That song always hits me right to my heart, I try to think did my mom make the right decision? As a mom I know I would never do that to my kids. Sometimes I get really angry and sometimes I’m like I wouldn’t be who I am today had I not been through that.
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I’m glad I turned out to be the woman I am today. The hard things we went through mold us into who we are today. Slowly letting go of everything but never forgetting the things that made me grateful for my life now. There is a reason I fight to keep it.

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