ニーナ・メルセデスのインスタグラム(lifewithmariza) - 7月19日 12時59分

Have you ever lost someone to suicide, do you struggle with depression or anxiety. ?? Drop a ❤️ in the comments for me please.
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When I was 12 my favorite uncle committed suicide. My uncle Mark was only in his 20’s. He was the baby of the family, he was my moms little brother and they were very close. Mark was the most loved of them all everyone will tell you that about him. My uncle Tito lived for Mark, I remember one year he bought him a boat for his birthday. I feel like everyone wanted him to be happy and he wanted everyone around him happy. He had a great job and a beautiful girlfriend and he seemed like a normal young man living life. He had issues here and there like normal but no real signs of anything. Maybe he was a little sheltered I’m not sure what causes such a break. His gf ended up being married and after some time she went back to her husband and broke up with my uncle Mark. On my uncle Tito’s birthday while my uncle and grandparents were at the birthday dinner Mark took a gun to his head and ended his life. To this day I have so many questions about why. Answers I’ll never get so no real closure. There were so many people at his service it overflowed outside. I recall people saying “I don’t think he knew how loved he was”. __
? Sadness and depression don’t have a specific look. Sometimes the saddest people look the happiest. For years as a child I asked myself what could I have said or maybe done to change things. I blamed myself somehow for my moms sadness. I relived moments I was in the same room with Mark asking myself did I miss the signs. Now as an adult, I know I can’t internalize those things, in reality it had nothing to do with me. Many years later I lost my dad to suicide I didn’t see that point of sadness. He didn’t look like he needed help and he didn’t reach out.
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??What this taught me? Be kind to everyone and tell people you love them. I pick one person a day and send them a message to say “I’m thinking about you and I care” depending on who it is, it gets worded differently. I take this on daily and it’s helped me so much. I challenge you to try it! Tell me if you do in and how you feel after a week! ❤️

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