ニーナ・メルセデスのインスタグラム(lifewithmariza) - 5月10日 07時07分

Can anyone relate? ? Let me know in the comments please ??
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Thinking back to a time I was a single mom at 17, I had a 2 year old baby and I was struggling to make ends meet. I had a 9th grade education and not many options. I was living with my mom at home and working a 9-5 as a waitress. My mom couldn’t watch my son because she had a habit so I had to put my son in daycare while I worked. I had a government assistance program that paid for a his childcare and that facility in my opinion wasn’t the best but I didn’t have a choice. Even at 2 years old my son recognized the daycare. As I took him down he would start screaming and clinging to me. I had to walk him in day after day like this. It never got easier or better. I remember my heart aching as I left him with this strange woman. I would get in my car and cry all the way to work feeling guilty that I was breaking my babies heart. I didn’t know how long he cried or if they held him lovingly or not. I couldn’t imagine the feeling of abandonment he felt daily from me. I hated the routine and I was miserable at my job all day torn about where my life was heading. I remember feeling like I wasn’t getting enough time to be with my baby. I would pick him up at 5:30 get home at 6pm feed him and then he would go to sleep. Then the nightmare of dropping him off started over the next day. I felt like I wasn’t raising him, I felt like I wasn’t able to be the mom I wanted to Just writing this hurts my heart. To this day I look back at those moments and feel guilt. Eventually I took a night job so I could leave him sleeping with my mom at night. No more daycares I felt it was too traumatic for both of us. But that wasn’t much better for different reasons.
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