ベラ・ゴールデンさんのインスタグラム写真 - (ベラ・ゴールデンInstagram)「this is me, in my natural state, owning every part of my body for ME. 💛✨🌼🌱 the other day I was looking at my body straight on, super critically having a lot of negative self talk. I found myself wondering how I let myself get here? when I see my friends beat themselves up over their body or their skin, I always think “you’re crazy!! you look great, you beautiful incredible human!” but why dont I have the same energy, criticizing something about myself? why are we so hard on ourselves 🥺 I often lose sight of normalcy in a perfectionist culture. one where the beauty standard is very specific, white washed, and thin- it leaves little room for originality and inclusion. I’m still grappling with how I fit in here, but I know that my inner saboteur works overtime. society expects women to have it “together” all the time- beautiful but not too beautiful, smart but not too smart, be sexy but only in the eyes of men, be confident, not cocky. the expectations feel overwhelming. to be expected to wear a bra that perks up our breasts, shape wear to slim us down and high waists to hide our stomachs. to minimize and shrink ourselves. I feel liberated for finding the beauty in the moments that are not the “perfection” I’ve always strived to achieve. i’m not “body goals” i’m bella. i’m not “too big to model” i’m bella. no I’m not “tired” or “unhealthy” I’m doing the best job I can right now, and i’m proud of myself. I have marks and rolls and scars and if you do too I want you to know you’re literally magic. and no matter how you look i hope you’re taking the time to appreciate the person you are, and how far you’ve come. 🤍| self portraits by me」1月31日 10時58分