カミーユ・グアティさんのインスタグラム写真 - (カミーユ・グアティInstagram)「Being a mom (#donormom) can be tough sometimes... People ask me all the time... “Will I connect with my child?” “Will they connect more with the father?” “How will I feel when the child looks nothing like me?” I wish I could say, all of you’re fears go away forever, but the truth is they don’t. They sneak in when you least expect it and working through them takes courage. I had a tough few days. Maybe it was the 500th comment of someone saying my baby looks exactly like his father or watching the beautiful relationship between my son and his dad and questioning whether our bond was as strong. But the moment that took me down, was when he starting calling my husband #momma. It slowly started to break me. I took some time to reflect on why this was hurting so much. What I realized is...a #mother is all I wanted to be. And now I feel like thats being taken from me. The truth is, he doesn’t know how much he’s hurting me and my husband isn’t to blame either. Yet all the fears from before we started #donorconception began to creep back in. Does he love me as much as his dad? Is it because he’s genetically connected to him that he wants to call him momma. I know this might sound ridiculous to someone who hasn’t walked down this road, but these are valid thoughts. I’m sharing, because this decision to be a #donormomma doesn’t come with a handbook. It takes so much courage to lay so many fears and questions to rest and take that step to be donor parents. But I would do it all over again...because this little boy is the light of my life and although my thoughts are well founded, it doesn’t make them true. I feel so lucky to me his momma even if he thinks there are two of us! I am grateful to be partnered with @tulipfertility who will help guide us in our journey as parents. The support and resources they offer are invaluable. Thank you ladies for all that you do! #donoreggivf #donor #donoreggs #ivfjourney #ivfwarrior #ivfcommunity #infertility #infertilityawareness #infertilitysucks #infertilitysupport #fertility #fertilityjourney」12月31日 7時42分