ダニエラ・ルーアさんのインスタグラム写真 - (ダニエラ・ルーアInstagram)「🇺🇸 Scrolling through @yourzenmama I learned today is Rainbow baby day. For those who don’t know (I didn’t) what that is, a rainbow baby is one born after a miscarried pregnancy. So today might be a good day to share a story I’ve never made public: Dave and I always planned/hoped on having 2 kids, so when River was a toddler we started trying for a 2nd kid. We were lucky and we hit the jackpot pretty fast... at 9 weeks along I went for an ultrasound to check the baby’s heartbeat and... silence. “Is everything ok?” I asked. “No, its not ok” my Dr said empathetically. I immediately went into logical mode, asking what the next steps were. I didn’t breakdown until I sat in my car alone and called Dave (who was working on NCISLA that day). As soon as I heard his voice I started to sob. I couldn’t even get the words out... I found myself in such an overwhelmingly visceral pit of sadness and guilt, wondering if I had done something wrong even though my amazing Dr said it had nothing to do with me, it was just the nature of it all. I let myself sit in this hole for a few days, until I was ready to let go, all while deciding to let my body cleanse itself of the fetus. But it never did. So we took it to the next level and used prescribed pills to help my body along (I only wanted to do a D&C as a last resort) Fortunately the pills worked. We waited a month and started to try again. In early January 2016, I woke up to a msg from my parents letting me know my elderly grandpa had passed. It was expected but painful nonetheless, the end of an era. Then my mom says, “I bet you’re pregnant.” “Why?” I asked. “When one life ends, another begins.” She replied. And sure enough she was right. I took a home test that same morning and low and behold... Sierra came into existence. Sierra is my smart and soulful rainbow baby. Incan’t imagine parents who miscarry later in pregnancy or even cope with stillborn children. My heart goes out to all of us. The best thing I ever did was communicate with friends and family and realize I wasn’t alone in this journey of loss. So now I share my experience with anyone who needs to hear it too. Sending all parents love and strength 🌈」8月23日 6時42分