レイチェル・ブレイセンのインスタグラム(yoga_girl) - 7月23日 04時17分

...and then what? ⁣
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This is the question that came up for me in my meditation today. Except it wasn’t said quietly, or gently like that. It was more like something inside and somehow also outside of me yelled: AND THEN WHAT??!? Meaning: After all this doing - and then what? ⁣
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Every moment of my life there has been doing - something to survive, something to fix, something to get done. I know I’m not unique in this; it’s whats expected of us in this world. I’m constantly validated for my busy-ness. The busier I’ve been, the more important I’ve felt. On the surface. Deep down, I’ve been dying a slow death. Running 180 mph into absolutely nothing. Even now in my calmer, post-quarantine life; the details of what I do have changed but I’m still doing. I constantly have a project on the horizon. New business ideas. Renovating the house. Renovating myself. Just getting into the minutae of my day; it’s all do and get done. My day is made up of this string of things, as it is for all of us, - work, home, family, life - it’s just how we live. But the voice that spoke to me this morning was asking me to look at the point of it all. After all of this - and then what? After the next big milestone is met, and then what? After the next home improvement project is done, and then what? After all of my therapy, and then what? After Lea grows up, after Dennis and I have grown old, at the end of my life... And then what? ⁣
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The depth of that And Then What moved me to the core of my being. It touched a part of myself that’s longing to stop. That doesn’t want to justify her existence with accomplishments. That is sick and tired of telling the world LOOK AT ME AND ALL I AM DOING. That is terrified her worth is wrapped up in what she creates. That deep down, wonders every day of her life: if I stop, am I still lovable? Am I still worthy? Will I still serve a purpose in this life? ⁣
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And then what? ⁣
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At the end of the day ⁣
at the end of my life ⁣
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I still have to be here with myself. ⁣

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