Niece Waidhoferさんのインスタグラム写真 - (Niece WaidhoferInstagram)「How has it really been a year. ⠀ ⠀ A year, and it still hits me like a freight train every day when I think something along the lines of “oh shit, gotta ask Dad about that random thing next Sunday at family dinner,” or “hm wonder if Dad’s still at the office or if I should call his cell.” I don’t know how it hasn’t sunk in yet, and I don’t know if it ever will, or what will happen when it does.⠀ ⠀ I wish I had a more encouraging message for those also experiencing loss right now, but to be honest, it hasn’t gotten easier. I haven’t gotten stronger, like they say you’re supposed to. It is not getting better.⠀ ⠀ FAQ: ⠀ Q: “get off ig, go spend time with family”⠀ A: I won’t go into detail, but I can’t. In a nutshell, the family dynamic is nothing short of fucked right now.⠀ ⠀ Q: “lol imagine raising a daughter just to have her post about your death amongst a bunch of slutty lingerie selfies”⠀ A: When he was alive, my dad was very proud to have me as a daughter, as he was not a judgmental, overly-conservative asshole. I felt like posting this today, idk, I guess to take my mind off things. Please take your negativity elsewhere. ⠀ ⠀ Q: “what happened?”⠀ A: pancreatic cancer. Out of nowhere. Healthiest man in the world, dead four months later. I am grateful we got the opportunity to say everything we needed to say before the end. However, watching him slowly die is something from which I will never recover. A lifetime of memories are overshadowed by a few short months of watching him waste away. The sound of him gasping for air almost entirely drowns out memories of his iconic “HEH” belly laugh.⠀ ⠀ “I miss you” doesn’t even begin to cover it. 🦅 ⠀」3月28日 3時42分