アナリン・マッコードさんのインスタグラム写真 - (アナリン・マッコードInstagram)「“One of the blocks to emotional development is the fear of what lies buried in our unconscious. Carl Jung called this area, which we are unwilling to look at and to own, the “shadow.” He said that the self CANNOT become healed & whole unless we look at & acknowledge the shadow. This means that buried within us all, in what Jung called the “collective unconscious,” is everything that we most dislike admitting about ourselves.” - David Hawkins M.D., Ph.D. I had to look at & take ownership for the darkest parts of me. I am so kind to that dark part now, AND I am accountable for it. Because I let myself see my Shadow in real time, I see how its dark thoughts creep into my awareness. I respond with, “Bitch, I see you! Mmmmhmm... I’m talkin’ to you. Don’t be trying to fuck w/ my good vibes!” My Shadow gets all skurrrred. I’m like, “Yeah. That’s what I THOUGHT!” 😂 The desire to destroy myself has diminished over time. The Shadow is always there, but in the ‘Light’ of Awareness it is forced to fade away. If there is something I don’t want to admit I’ve done or felt, I do video journals & say it out loud. In no time, I’m able to admit it to a friend & even the person who my Shadow might have been wanting to be a Shady Lil B to. In the process of acknowledging it I see shame literally evaporate. I’ve been able to say, “Yes, I was being malicious and super shady. I’m sorry about that.” My Shadow HATES when I confess. It’s like “Dammmmmittt!” Confessing my Shadow’s tendencies has gradually empowered me to such a point that I don’t know how NOT to take ownership. It’s almost addicting. I used to be a pathological liar as a result of all my trauma. I was so afraid of the truth. I was shown how dangerous it was. I would lie about stupid shit like, “Oh, I saw that movie, it was amazing.” My brain is like, “Ummm, no the fck you haven’t & you thought the trailer looked dumb AF.” 🤦🏼‍♀️ Now, all I care about is authenticity. So naturally my Shadow’s response has been, “Screw that! Authenticity? Hell no!” Everything is ok :) When I’m fully my authentic self, that’s ok. When I drop the ball & my Shadow gets the best of me, that’s ok. Everything Is ok. Our intention is key.」2月26日 1時00分