エルザ・ホスクさんのインスタグラム写真 - (エルザ・ホスクInstagram)「An essay on birth❤️Part 5/6 It takes a few hours of pushing to get her head out. Tom is holding one of my legs and the midwife another, my doula Carson is cheering on me, like she has for the last 12 hours. the most progress I’m making Is when I’m holding onto my own legs pushing the knees up my armpits. I keep repeating in my head every push is getting her closer to me and now my birth team urges me to feel her head coming down the canal but I’m too exhausted and scared , I just want her to come. Later, when a patch of her head is visible they bring a mirror so I’m forced to look, the team of course knows this will motivate me and to my great surprise it gives me such strength and power and it comes from somewhere hidden and deep, never in life has that power gear in me been accessed before and I push deeper, harder, to get that head out. My belly hadn’t looked that big pregnant but once the head is coming we all realize she is a big baby. She also has her little hands next to her face. My team can feel them under my skin. They are working so hard so I won’t rip, making quick decisions about her hands and head and how to maneuver her while I Im pushing. They are talking to me , telling me to go slow or push. We are working to get the head out for 2hrs. Then finally with the biggest , most extended push, and a sound and sensation that I’ve never felt or made in life - the whole head comes out. I’m so relieved, I’ve never felt more relieved. I feel like it’s over. Then her body with another big push. And she is put on my chest. All bloody and fluids are everywhere and she is pooping all over me, and she is looking for my nipple. And the most pain I’ve ever felt is forgotten, I am overwhelmed with love, proudness, happiness. She is here. I talk to her. I tell her I’m so proud of her. Her mom has been through war and yet she is so chill, her heart rate so stable. she had arrived with the sun at 7am, and the room shifted from what felt like a horror movie darkness into a light sun filled dream. On the morning she is born, all the planets are in her sign, my super Aquarius baby.」2月17日 7時30分