エルザ・ホスクさんのインスタグラム写真 - (エルザ・ホスクInstagram)「An essay on birth❤️Part 4/6 The lip of the cervix is still not opening. My midwife Abby suggests one last pose she know is good for getting rid of it, a kind of a child’s pose. For this to work I have to get out of the water and onto the bed. It’s once again, where I feel the worst pain so far. Im beyond exhausted and my body goes into complete shut down and sleep in between the waves only to be awaken by Adrenalin to push once a new one is coming. In this child’s pose I’m able to find enough power to push away the lip, and this is where my water breaks fully, flowing out all over the bed. I don’t care. I imagine Every sensation of pain is her pushing a little further down the birth canal. When I doubt myself if I can do it and I miss breathing through a contraction I break into what feels like a million pieces. Birthing is really confronting yourself, your fears and doubts and coming through the other side. Its the worst pain, fear, and darkness I’ve ever experienced in those moments. I feel like an animal. I have given up every sense what I’m suppose to look like, what anyone thinks of me, what is normal many, many hours ago. I have left my ego, my pride. I’m just getting through, getting closer to my baby.」2月17日 7時28分