エルザ・ホスクさんのインスタグラム写真 - (エルザ・ホスクInstagram)「An essay on birth❤️Part 3/6 A few hours in and I am desperately asking when the midwife will be here. I surely can’t do this for much longer and I feel that if she has been called its the sign that its time and it will all be over, and also the time I will get to step into the birthing pool that is set up in our bedroom. I imagine the water would be the greatest comfort. It’s not time. A few more hours has to pass until she arrives, and when she does I barely notice through the pain of the waves, I just feel like I’m surviving at this point. I’m breathing and trying to stay calm like our hypno birthing coach has taught me and finally Im led to the birthing pool. I know from the plan that usually the birthing pool is the last stage and this is where I’ll push the baby out. The contractions are now the strongest they have ever been but I imagine that with every one my baby is getting closer to me. The second I stepped into the birthing pool I don’t remember opening my eyes again for a long time. I remember Johanna, my midwifes assistant feeling how far dialated I Im and I’m thinking the baby’s head is already almost out but she says thers still 0.5 cm left , a bit of the cervix on one side that’s still preset, called the lip, this happens when the cervix gets caught between the pelvis and the baby's head. She tries to massage and manually push it away during contractions and I have to move onto the toilet to try and breathe and push harder. It’s the most painful moment so far but I remember feeling so grateful for these teqniques and open to try anything natural to get this baby out quicker. I remember feeling so devastated that I still have to go through the pushing down the birth canal. It feels like she will never come out. I start doubting if I can do this, hang in there, get her out. Then I remind myself that I can’t just stop, there’s no way but through the pain. The baby can’t stay in there, she needs to come out. I pretend Every contraction is a wave, I have to take a deep breath and dive under it and not let the air out until it’s over.」2月17日 7時26分