NATALIE LIAOさんのインスタグラム写真 - (NATALIE LIAOInstagram)「I remember so vividly, those moments in my life where I felt as if I was invisibly drowning from the inside out. My sense of time warped as I lost track of the hours and minutes as my body went on auto-pilot. It was painful to move without direction and to live with no purpose. I felt suffocated. In my heart, mind and body. Until one morning, I woke up and decided that I no longer wanted to feel that way. I no longer wanted to be a victim to my own self-sabotage. I no longer wanted to allow my external reality to control my inner reality. I no longer wanted to be on the brink of my own inner death. It was in that moment that I made the decision to take back my power. On my knees, I prayed. I prayed to be saved, for strength. I prayed for clarity. It’s been a few years now since that moment of utter surrender and despair. How can I describe the feelings in that moment? I am not sure I can. But I can say, that was when I truly understood the saying that “despair is the price one pays for self-awareness.” Because being suffocated led me to my freedom.」10月30日 0時37分