フェン・シャーニィーさんのインスタグラム写真 - (フェン・シャーニィーInstagram)「This is my first time dying my hair darker than my natural colour. Up until a few years ago, I refused to dye my hair darker than my natural colour because I didn’t want to make myself ‘more Asian’ than I already was. Actually, I was so determined to look ‘more White’ when I was in high school that I used to put lemon juice and chamomile in my hair and sit outside in the sun for hours in an attempt to make my hair colour lighter (because I wasn’t allowed to bleach my hair). All of the teasing in school - the eye-pulling gestures, the name-calling, the exclusion - manifested so horribly inside me that I started resenting the fact I was Asian and I wanted to disassociate as much as I could from my culture. The thoughts that ran through my mind then was - I couldn’t change where I was born but I could definitely alter my appearance to seem more White, right? If I looked more White, would people stop calling me Ching-Chong and asking me if I could see through my tiny eyes? Would people find me beautiful because I no longer looked as Asian? 5 years since I graduated high school and I’m finally in a place where I am proud to be Asian!❤️ 初めて地毛より暗い色に染めてもらいました🥰いつもありがとうございます　@yamauchi_ryoutaro @shima__harajuku」8月25日 21時30分