ヴィッキー・パティソンさんのインスタグラム写真 - (ヴィッキー・パティソンInstagram)「Another week finished at my fave place in the world & as always leaving @juicemasterretreats has made me reflective- it was almost exactly a year ago from when I was last here & as you may be able to see from these pictures- it’s been a transitional period indeed. This 1st body might look healthy, might look lean & toned- but it wasn’t the product of hours in the gym, yoga classes or healthy eating- it was the product of almost giving up. Of actually being too heartbroken & lost to eat. I just couldn’t bring myself to eat or care about anything. All I could focus on was all the negative. This girl didn’t sleep, & when she did she would wake up crying & shaking, I had anxiety, I was stressed. I was so petrified of my own phone ringing & there being more bad news I was scared to pick it up but at the same time needing it near me as some sort of emotional crutch or security blanket. I spent my week away posting a slew of half naked pictures in some sort of desperate & misguided act of defiance. As if by showing the world that I was thin & toned I was showing them I was somehow ok & strong. Underneath it all I wasn’t- I was drowning in the grief of a lost best friend, a lost relationship & the loss of the future I had planned for myself. Fast forward a year and I am a different person. Now don’t get me wrong, I’ve got a couple extra lumps and bumps that I’d prefer weren’t there and I’ve definitely added to my cellulite collection but I AM HAPPY! Do you know what I see when I look at the 2nd picture? A girl who wouldn’t give up. Who has fought for what she knows she deserves. I see my amazing year filled with love, laughter & beautiful people. I see my late night nuggets in bed with a remarkable man, I see silly nights out with the girls I couldn’t live without. I see Pt sessions and charity bike rides, adventures with my mam- I see strength 💙 (I also see nipples so sorry about that- it was abit chilly 😂) This is just a little reminder for anyone struggling- all those old cliches are true. Time is the best healer, you will look back and laugh, what is meant for you will not pass you by and it will get better.. .. oh so much better. Mark my words ♥️」12月7日 14時52分