ジュリアン・ハフさんのインスタグラム写真 - (ジュリアン・ハフInstagram)「When I started doing music 10 years ago, I was a performer by nature. I wanted to be on stage, I wanted to sing, I wanted to dance - I wanted to pour my heart out. And I did it, but there was always a piece that felt inauthentic, because I was just PUSHING to get people to LIKE and ACCEPT me. At one point I actually just gave up on my music because I found myself constantly comparing myself to other artists. Being the competitor I was, if I wasn’t winning, I was losing. If you/I looked at the reality of what was happening, I was absolutely crushing it. But that was that. I made the call and let music fall to the side - and in doing so, I abandoned the artist in me and went further and further into the performer. ⁣⁣ ⁣⁣ About two years ago something shifted. By doing the internal work that needed doing, I found myself (unintentionally!) connecting back to my artist. Just by simply owning all the “ugly” parts of my life. The second I started going into that black hole of what it all represented and really unpacking all of the survival tactics of protection - of not feeling hurt, or like a failure, or like a fraud, I finally got to feel what it truly felt like to be RAW and vulnerable and to see all of these parts for the first time with no judgement.⁣⁣ ⁣⁣ For two years I have been picking those pieces up, nurturing them - and transforming them. I’m not trying to change who I am or suppress those parts of me anymore - but instead, I acknowledge them, take them and TRANSFORM them. As I was doing that in my daily life, I realized all of a sudden that my creativity, my life blood, the entire essence of WHO I AM was coming ALIVE.⁣⁣ ⁣⁣ This is the first time I truly feel like an artist and not a performer simply because everything I’m saying is TRUTH - and I’m not afraid anymore if everyone will like it because it’s just, ME!! it makes me smile⁣⁣ it makes me feel alive⁣⁣ ⁣⁣ I actually feel ALIVE.⁣⁣ ⁣⁣ I’m so excited to share this part of me with all of you, this is gonna be so much fun - and it’s just the beginning!⁣⁣ ⁣⁣ Only love and truth,⁣⁣ Julianne ⁣⁣ #TRANSFORM ⁣ ⁣ photography @brianbowensmith⁣ creative direction @hello_gambles」9月19日 9時04分