テイラーRさんのインスタグラム写真 - (テイラーRInstagram)「This still feels like a nightmare that I hope to wake up from. I was too late. I would give anything to see you again & tell you all the things I wanted to say. I guess I have to do that today. a part of me doesn’t want to because then it will be real. Today I will see you for the last time before we lay you to rest & I’m not ready to say goodbye. You weren’t ready either. But I guess nobody will ever be & I need to find comfort knowing that you’re in a better place..we never knew you were tired and in pain because you were always so strong & hardworking. I'm learning so much about you now. things you never told me about your past about how many jobs & how hard you worked..that’s why we all have what we have today. We’re getting calls from people who knew you & deeply respect you..I hear a little piece about your life from them. I’m trying to stay strong like you & hold it together for Grandma. But it’s weird Jojou. coming back & not seeing you pick me up from the airport & take me to dinner like you always do..it’s weird not having you here at your home pulling out all of the food..or laying on your side of the bed bc Grandma has never slept alone since she was 16. We wake up through the night & talk about you. Your last water bottle is still on her bedside table. It was weird smelling your cologne this morning as we prepared all the things you loved for you to wear during your visitation bc you always were so put together & proud. It’s weird not getting your messages & talking to you at 4:30 am bc I was the only one up on the other side of the world when you couldn’t sleep. I miss your Happy Birthday song. I miss so many things already. But I will talk to you everyday and keep telling you and I’m sure you’ll remind me you’re around. I have to get out of this bathroom now and help Grandma get ready. She’s wearing the last outfit you bought her and her hair the way you liked it. I will take care of her..we all will..so will the little dog you got just before you left. She keeps her going and she’s stubborn just like you. I know you always followed my IG, FB & YouTube..actually I can see the last thing you searched was for me. I hope you read this too. I love you」4月9日 23時39分