ニーナ・メルセデスのインスタグラム(lifewithmariza) - 12月31日 04時13分

👋🏽 I survived and you will too just believe you deserve better. I always have a hard time writing this but knowing it helps some of you makes it easier.
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When I was 15 I married and had a child with an abusive man. I remember black eyes, strategic bruise that weren’t visible. I remember not being able to walk because of the pain. I remember blacking out slowly while he was on top of me, hands around my throat. I remember hearing my newborn screaming while I fought for my life. He was 6 foot and easily 200 pounds I was 15 years old. I remember my sister asking me if I was okay and him squeezing my hand in pain as I lied and said yes when I really wanted to scream for help. I remember him threatening my life and my sons life’s if I ever left. I remember the fear I felt back then. The anger rising in me as I write this, the tears falling down my cheek remembering all these things today. It’s a scar that heals but never disappears.
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Many of you have been there, some of you are still going through it. I get asked a lot how did I get out. Honestly I stayed for too long I stayed for 2-3 years. I adapted to the hits and the verbal abuse. I learned to fight back and walk away just thankful for my life at the same time wishing I had died so I didn’t have to go through it again. When the abuse spilled over onto my baby I called the police and my sister. The point of no return was looking at my baby bleeding covered in shards of glass. He came to my apt drunk throwing glass at us. I stood there with my baby screaming for him to stop. I had him put in jail, I took my baby and hid for a few months.
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It took me years to recover sometimes I reflect on that little girl and hug her. I thank her for surviving I’m grateful for her strength. I tell her God put you through that so you can be a light to other women today.
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If your going through that now all I can tell you is that it’s not gonna stop so just get out now. You’ll be okay I know it’s not easy but you deserve better. That’s not love, love doesn’t hurt. If you’ve been there and got out I’m proud of you Queen! Your beautiful and amazing and so loved.
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